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natsume sakasaki ([personal profile] crystallomancy) wrote2020-01-08 10:36 pm

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[personal profile] starrypoint 2022-04-23 01:34 am (UTC)(link)
[i'll find some way to save you, too, dies on his lips before it even comes out, because it's thankfully a sentiment not entirely marred by memory loss — he knows natsume is an idol, and idols are all about the smiles of their fans — but he knows, too, that natsume claims not to regret it, claims it was his choice and he'll die with it, and...

... well, supposedly it can't be undone save by a particular mean. and there's no way that's happening now, not the one keigo (an ache begins in his chest) mentioned, but subaru turns to look off at the way they'd yet to go, where eventually they would find the blood-stained trees so long as they had something worth giving to pass beneath it, and wonders.

wonders what price that would be, and then cuts it short at the discovery natsume makes in the meantime.]


Out here?

[a beat.]

... I mean, I remember... Lena starting to go out with one, since everything that happened the other day, [loosely "the other day" nothing but that frankly shocking meeting had happened this week that could have caused it,] but you don't think...
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[personal profile] starrypoint 2022-04-24 09:54 pm (UTC)(link)
[subaru hold his breath, hoping too, and

nothing. silence. no reply, because she certainly would have replied, and he presses his nails in so hard they bite into his palms.]


I'm gonna take a quick look around.

[for a body, maybe. hopefully still warm, still breathing.

he won't find one, but he has to try.]
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[personal profile] starrypoint 2022-04-27 02:08 pm (UTC)(link)
[finding a body would be a blessing. but there's nothing, and eventually subaru drops down beside natsume and tucks into his side, inadequacies be damned, face pressed against the other's neck.]

No good.

[is all he can say, quiet and scratchy and strained as he tries not to cry.]
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[personal profile] starrypoint 2022-04-27 02:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Nothing you didn't find, really. Seems like there was a fight. I don't think... she really lost, since that usually ends worse, but definitely a fight.

[...

if it was her at all out here, and not someone else. maybe it was. maybe it's coincidental. maybe helena is playing a mean trick on them, and she'll be there to greet them when they get back.

they're small, futile hopes, and he can't even bring himself to voice them.]


Lena can take care of herself, [he mentions softly.] But I think we should ground her when we see her again.

[whenever. if it's tomorrow, next week, or... next year. ever.]
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[personal profile] starrypoint 2022-04-27 02:53 pm (UTC)(link)
[would it be cruel? to ask natsume to come with?

...

maybe.]


Do you really wanna come? I just wanna drop something off for the little guy and maybe clean a bit, while I'm out here.

[ask that they watch over helena like they do him, that she is not alone. it won't be physically answered, it won't need to be, he won't ask them to appear.]

I just... don't wanna go back just yet. People're gonna ask about her, y'know?
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[personal profile] starrypoint 2022-04-27 04:01 pm (UTC)(link)
[it makes him laugh a little, just a short one, but it still takes him a minute to get to standing (he has to make sure he won't shake, won't buckle) before holding out his hands to natsume.]

Okay. We can probably just say she's come down with something, though, and that she'll be better with some rest... I guess.

[even though

this scene speaks of worse injuries, potentially.]
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[personal profile] starrypoint 2022-04-27 08:47 pm (UTC)(link)
[so mean. subaru grips it tighter just a moment longer before he lets natsume let go and shuffles them into his

he doesn't have pockets to put them in, he realizes, so they just fall loosely at his sides instead as he turns back outward, shrine in mind and a glance at natsume.]


You got a coin on you?

[or did that stop when subaru lost his unusual love for luster.]
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[personal profile] starrypoint 2022-04-27 10:31 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, yeah~? How?

[so cool though... his lil parlor tricks.]
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[personal profile] starrypoint 2022-04-28 01:16 am (UTC)(link)
Natsume... That isn't very fair, but I'm kinda into it.

[the more he can attempt to normal up their walk the more they can pretend they're okay while their friend is missing.]
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[personal profile] starrypoint 2022-04-29 02:08 am (UTC)(link)
Fortune'll smile on me someday. ♪

["you wouldn't favor your best friend?" was on the tip of his tongue, a tease both of them know (knew) so well, but that. that'll do.]
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[personal profile] starrypoint 2022-04-29 02:20 am (UTC)(link)
[...! yesyesyes he'll take it, dancing it between his knuckles.]

Yeah~... I mean, I think they're real pretty, sure, but I can't imagine having a whole episode over it. I always wondered why I acted that way.

[...]

Why he did, I mean.

[subaru's. accepting this and that, he's coming to understand stuff, but he still doesn't want to sully the memory of the person natsume cared so much for by overlaying himself like that.]