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natsume sakasaki ([personal profile] crystallomancy) wrote2020-01-08 10:36 pm

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[personal profile] starrypoint 2022-03-06 03:18 am (UTC)(link)
[... ... ...

well, it's been a minute since. the whole meeting thing. with things revealed... the truth more fully laid bare... there's an empty feeling scratching at his heart, still lingering since a week ago, but anger smolders further within it. he fiddles around the whole day, slinking back to school to attend a class or two before he slips away again, laying on the roof and staring at the still-light sky.

it's warming up. he wishes he could enjoy it with someone.

... ... ...]


do you think it mattered?
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[personal profile] starrypoint 2022-03-06 04:17 am (UTC)(link)
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so you dont think it mattered
ive been thinkin about it


[...

he doesn't know what to say after that though, too much that'd be permanent in words and the fear that lingers heavy with it. so he leaves it there, frustrated and scratching at the concrete of the roof until his finger feels raw.]
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[personal profile] starrypoint 2022-03-06 04:51 am (UTC)(link)
then why couldnt they have stopped it

[it's immediate, and he knows it's not fair.

god oversees. god doesn't tend to interfere unless asked, traded for something in return. it's fair. his throat closes and he wishes he could go blind, too, but the sun isn't strong enough behind the clouds of the day.]


dont answer its not a question im just
really pissed off
not at jizosama just in general


[more than that, though, is he's in pain.]
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[personal profile] starrypoint 2022-03-06 05:22 am (UTC)(link)
i did and ended up in the other school

[a few times, punched something until his knuckles went raw. but bandages cover all, gloves cover all, he takes care not to go too far now.]

this place is a real pain i just wanna throw hands with a wall without worryin about it sendin me somewhere cold
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[personal profile] starrypoint 2022-03-06 05:29 am (UTC)(link)
that isnt enough

[if he hurts enough physically then he can't feel it emotionally for like a few hours]
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[personal profile] starrypoint 2022-03-06 05:34 am (UTC)(link)
[he laughs despite himself, resting his head back on his arm as he smiles. that probably wasn't the intended effect. but... it feels nice. a little normal. even if the texts are back to clipped and cold.]

i am asking to be first in line tho ill let sasara go first because shes a girl

[and apparently he has manners]
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[personal profile] starrypoint 2022-03-06 05:38 am (UTC)(link)
that doesnt mean she cant do it again
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[personal profile] starrypoint 2022-03-06 05:43 am (UTC)(link)
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nah

i just wanted to talk to you
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[personal profile] starrypoint 2022-03-06 05:49 am (UTC)(link)
[it remains on read for a while, going over line after line, before he settles on:]

thanks, natsume