I'm never going to DIE. ( not again. natsume shifts slightly closer to press a leg against subaru's, acting like he's just getting comfortable in bed. ) I have things to DO, Baru-kun. I have people to ensure the graduation OF. As long as those two things remain TRUE, I'm going to stay aLIVE, whatever it TAKES.
[but can he really, really promise that? just like if he'll come back always the same natsume after losing parts of him, of trading them away for something he feels is greater?
... that's what trust is. and subaru trusts natsume, even as there's the reasonable, very human fear wriggling in the back of his mind. even if natsume's killed before, and can kill again, if someone caught him by surprise or gave him little choice in the matter then what could even be done--]
Don't take it on alone. Even if I'm one of those people, you can still rely on me.
[just a tease, since he did already say before natsume had never lied to him. he's sure the other is relying on people in his own way, the way that subaru is stepping out, hesitantly, to rely on others himself.]
... Thanks.
[for the needed privacy. for promising. for staying until he's ready to let go and sleep.]
You have nothing to thank me FOR, ( he replies, sure and soft,
and natsume settles back against his pillows to nibble at his toast bits and sip at his tea and watch the wall while subaru rests, tendrils of grief worming their way into his heart when the other's breathing finally evens out and natsume can have some space to himself to press hot tears into. )
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I'm never going to DIE. ( not again. natsume shifts slightly closer to press a leg against subaru's, acting like he's just getting comfortable in bed. ) I have things to DO, Baru-kun. I have people to ensure the graduation OF. As long as those two things remain TRUE, I'm going to stay aLIVE, whatever it TAKES.
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... that's what trust is. and subaru trusts natsume, even as there's the reasonable, very human fear wriggling in the back of his mind. even if natsume's killed before, and can kill again, if someone caught him by surprise or gave him little choice in the matter then what could even be done--]
Don't take it on alone. Even if I'm one of those people, you can still rely on me.
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but time and time again, he'll state it: he's a magician. it's their job, their duty, to create miracles. )
...Don't make me repeat THINGS. I already said I'd rely on oTHERS, didn't I? Go to SLEEP.
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[just a tease, since he did already say before natsume had never lied to him. he's sure the other is relying on people in his own way, the way that subaru is stepping out, hesitantly, to rely on others himself.]
... Thanks.
[for the needed privacy. for promising. for staying until he's ready to let go and sleep.]
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and natsume settles back against his pillows to nibble at his toast bits and sip at his tea and watch the wall while subaru rests, tendrils of grief worming their way into his heart when the other's breathing finally evens out and natsume can have some space to himself to press hot tears into. )