( he is not losing subaru a second time, as impermanent as death can be here.
natsume, in the meanwhile, keeps calling for helena; subaru can hear his voice getting hoarser and hoarser while he's off taking a quick look, and at some point, natsume drops the nickname he has for helena—"little bat" changes to helena proper, and then drops to quiet as he settles down near one of the trees and plays with the knife to wait for subaru's return.
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( he is not losing subaru a second time, as impermanent as death can be here.
natsume, in the meanwhile, keeps calling for helena; subaru can hear his voice getting hoarser and hoarser while he's off taking a quick look, and at some point, natsume drops the nickname he has for helena—"little bat" changes to helena proper, and then drops to quiet as he settles down near one of the trees and plays with the knife to wait for subaru's return.
he's thinking. he's worried. he's sick. he wishes she'd reply. )