( helena paints a more promising and sweet future than what natsume is sure maya had in mind—but, that is what she followed up with when he said he was sure he'd fall for her again in another one of any of those, so maybe not.
if they could find each other and meet again, maybe they would. if they didn't, there's no helping that.
natsume's hand finds helena's after a good seven minutes of his shaking and trying to calm down, palm wiped dry so not to sully hers when he unsteadily grips it. )
...It was a loss I knew I had the chance of faCING, so I'll be FINE. ( one way or another, he has to be. it isn't a matter of what he wants or needs: he has to be. there are people here who count on him; there are people here who think he's made of sterner stuff; there are people here who don't know he's held a flame for the student council president at all. ) I still have to look after Hiro-kun and Sato-chan, for starTERS. She'd never forgive me if I let something happen to either of them after THIS.
( she wouldn't have before, but doubly this. he breathes in deep and slowly, and breathes out much the same; he does this until he feels a little better. not by much, but it's fine. )
Thank you for listeNING. ( please forget— he won't ask that of her. she won't bring it up anyway; she's polite and kind. that'll have to be good enough. ) And thank you for your condolenCES. I'll be fine eventually; time waits for no ONE. And I...
( ... )
We have to ensure that everyone passes ON. ( he looks up, then over at helena. ) That everyone has a chance to reincarnate in another time, another life, another WORLD.
( not just for maya, and not just for him, and not just for their silly little exchange. people deserve something else than this; some people deserve better than what they had in the last life, too. there are exceptions, but he's petty, not heartless, and maybe they won't be terrible in the next life either.
they can suffer in this one first though, just as soon as— )
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if they could find each other and meet again, maybe they would. if they didn't, there's no helping that.
natsume's hand finds helena's after a good seven minutes of his shaking and trying to calm down, palm wiped dry so not to sully hers when he unsteadily grips it. )
...It was a loss I knew I had the chance of faCING, so I'll be FINE. ( one way or another, he has to be. it isn't a matter of what he wants or needs: he has to be. there are people here who count on him; there are people here who think he's made of sterner stuff; there are people here who don't know he's held a flame for the student council president at all. ) I still have to look after Hiro-kun and Sato-chan, for starTERS. She'd never forgive me if I let something happen to either of them after THIS.
( she wouldn't have before, but doubly this. he breathes in deep and slowly, and breathes out much the same; he does this until he feels a little better. not by much, but it's fine. )
Thank you for listeNING. ( please forget— he won't ask that of her. she won't bring it up anyway; she's polite and kind. that'll have to be good enough. ) And thank you for your condolenCES. I'll be fine eventually; time waits for no ONE. And I...
( ... )
We have to ensure that everyone passes ON. ( he looks up, then over at helena. ) That everyone has a chance to reincarnate in another time, another life, another WORLD.
( not just for maya, and not just for him, and not just for their silly little exchange. people deserve something else than this; some people deserve better than what they had in the last life, too. there are exceptions, but he's petty, not heartless, and maybe they won't be terrible in the next life either.
they can suffer in this one first though, just as soon as— )