[the core of natsume is always going to be natsume.
but no one can go through so much and come out unscathed.
subaru's not at a loss for words so much as he has nothing else to say. natsume came clean, and the assurance of "i'll still be me" may be feeble but it's a small light nonetheless, and— at the very least the natsume standing in front of him right now, blind in one eye for the sake of someone else, is the natsume he's sang beside. worked with. complained to and about. if he'll still be that same natsume tomorrow, subaru doesn't know. but at least everything is the same right now, as far as he can tell, as far as his eyes can pick apart the little things natsume tries not to offer observation wise and still does.]
... 'Kay. I trust you, Natsume, but that doesn't mean I'm not gonna stick my nose into your business. You do it to me all the time, so it's only fair.
[so it's best just to be honest. to be open. to give him updates, before he finds them out himself.]
And it's super rude to say I can't help you, y'know~? Just tell me what you want me to do and I'll do it! Unless it's something I don't wanna do, like leave you alone and not ask questions. But if you're going blind, [and he knows natsume hates physical touch but subaru has done it so minimally today, so minimally since first waking up because it's what was necessary, so he thinks he can get a pass for holding up a hand to "blind out" natsume's left eye,] then let me be your eyes. If you lose your legs, then I'll walk for you. If you can't reach out, then I will. I don't mind, y'know? We're friends.
[god, subaru could be friends with a worse person.]
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but no one can go through so much and come out unscathed.
subaru's not at a loss for words so much as he has nothing else to say. natsume came clean, and the assurance of "i'll still be me" may be feeble but it's a small light nonetheless, and— at the very least the natsume standing in front of him right now, blind in one eye for the sake of someone else, is the natsume he's sang beside. worked with. complained to and about. if he'll still be that same natsume tomorrow, subaru doesn't know. but at least everything is the same right now, as far as he can tell, as far as his eyes can pick apart the little things natsume tries not to offer observation wise and still does.]
... 'Kay. I trust you, Natsume, but that doesn't mean I'm not gonna stick my nose into your business. You do it to me all the time, so it's only fair.
[so it's best just to be honest. to be open. to give him updates, before he finds them out himself.]
And it's super rude to say I can't help you, y'know~? Just tell me what you want me to do and I'll do it! Unless it's something I don't wanna do, like leave you alone and not ask questions. But if you're going blind, [and he knows natsume hates physical touch but subaru has done it so minimally today, so minimally since first waking up because it's what was necessary, so he thinks he can get a pass for holding up a hand to "blind out" natsume's left eye,] then let me be your eyes. If you lose your legs, then I'll walk for you. If you can't reach out, then I will. I don't mind, y'know? We're friends.
[god, subaru could be friends with a worse person.]