[how lucky. how lucky, for him, to be able to hide the things he's done so easily.]

... To help everyone else, huh? No matter who "everyone else" is to you, if it includes Hiroppi and them, it's to help others.

[it's not selfish. natsume is a selfish person at times, just like him, but they both share a desire to see others smile.

or, well. natsume did want to see smiles. subaru guesses he'll just know by tone by the end of the year, or assume they're happy when they might not be.]

That's so like you, Natsume. [but it's not cheery. it's not disappointed either, it's just. fact.

subaru lets go of natsume's wrist, clenching his fists and it feels like the confession all over again. on a smaller scale, on a lighter note, but he still doesn't know how to feel outside of pissed that natsume wanted to keep this from him.]

Aren't you scared? Of never seeing again?