No, you're NOT. It's one of the things I hate and admire the most about YOU.
( not a day goes by where he doesn't wish that subaru was as dumb as he acts. )
I told you about my murders because I didn't want you to find out through anyone ELSE, and so that you'd understand why I'd distance myself from you—you'd have been an easy target for anyone trying to undermine our relationSHIP, either through words or violent acTION. I haven't told you about my going blind because it isn't impacting you personalLY.
( but—
despite what natsume says, they're friends. they are rooming together. and it was stupid to think subaru wouldn't speak up about it. in part, he hadn't wanted to say anything because this was doing something reckless without consulting anyone for a second opinion first, but it isn't like he did this on a whim.
he thought about it.
he weighed the cost.
he found it suitable.
natsume fidgets his hands like he isn't done talking, because he isn't. he breaths in deeply, exhales slowly, and starts again, voice forced even. )
...At the moMENT, ( he finally says, lips pressing firmly together when he isn't using them to talk, ) I'm only blind in my right EYE. Over the course of a YEAR, I'm going to lose sight in my left eye as WELL.
( it would have been almost impossible to hide it from him at that point, even with helena's lessons. )
I was told this was the PRICE, and I've accepted THAT. An idol doesn't need to see the smiles on their fans' faces to know they're doing WELL, and there have been countless of blind prophets and diviners in the PAST. I won't suffer in either of my occupaTIONS.
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( not a day goes by where he doesn't wish that subaru was as dumb as he acts. )
I told you about my murders because I didn't want you to find out through anyone ELSE, and so that you'd understand why I'd distance myself from you—you'd have been an easy target for anyone trying to undermine our relationSHIP, either through words or violent acTION. I haven't told you about my going blind because it isn't impacting you personalLY.
( but—
despite what natsume says, they're friends. they are rooming together. and it was stupid to think subaru wouldn't speak up about it. in part, he hadn't wanted to say anything because this was doing something reckless without consulting anyone for a second opinion first, but it isn't like he did this on a whim.
he thought about it.
he weighed the cost.
he found it suitable.
natsume fidgets his hands like he isn't done talking, because he isn't. he breaths in deeply, exhales slowly, and starts again, voice forced even. )
...At the moMENT, ( he finally says, lips pressing firmly together when he isn't using them to talk, ) I'm only blind in my right EYE. Over the course of a YEAR, I'm going to lose sight in my left eye as WELL.
( it would have been almost impossible to hide it from him at that point, even with helena's lessons. )
I was told this was the PRICE, and I've accepted THAT. An idol doesn't need to see the smiles on their fans' faces to know they're doing WELL, and there have been countless of blind prophets and diviners in the PAST. I won't suffer in either of my occupaTIONS.